I took my "before" pictures today. I'm not as bad as I sometimes see myself as, but it is still far off from where I want to be. I thought just as I always have that this would be easy. That loosing weight should just come naturally to me. I should just have the answer and it should just melt off. I am becoming one of those women I make fun off...the ones that are so stupid...the yo-yo dieters. I have tried almost everything and feel myself easily being sucked into quick fixes. I even tried bootcamp this past summer..and could only stick with it for a few weeks at a time. I saw no results like other people did. I want to see that change. I am so jealous of other peoples weight loss. thinking that it was so easy for them..but for me its hard because I'm different. Am I or is it an excuse? is it an excuse telling myself that nothing is wrong? I just want to do it. but I don't do it. what is that connection in my brain shutting off the motivation factor? I remember getting on the Wii Fit at my future mother in law's house to create my Wii person...and it told me I was obese and made a plump little cartoon version of me. I was so humilitated and embarassed.
So weight watchers it is. Gym is #2.
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